June 15th 1998

I got up this morning and it is so perfectly beautiful on a Summer morning. I had my coffee with the door open and was in such a good mood when I left for work.
It was high tide and warm by 6am.
We are planning our 4th of July party. I think Jane and Chris may take the ferry over and come to the parade and do the whole Caledonia Street/Dumpy park dorky boat race, Eugene and the Bluejeans.... smittys.
We are going to start at Karl's with some sort of brunch and bloodys and then walk down to the parade.
hmm what to make for breakfast?

June 5th 1998

Kent Millers Birthday.
I am bringing him some cookies that I made. There are enough that he can share them with the whole Nike pit.
This houseboat is creepy. I wake up in the night and have this absolute feeling that beings are hovering all over my bed.. the room is round and its a big circle of ghosty weirdness.
We are planning a trip to Silver Lake with all Wudtkes and Harwoods in August.

May 22nd 1998

It's my birthday, the weather is nice and I am sitting on the deck. The girls came by and we had drinks and they gave me this really cool shirt that Lynnie has that I like.
I am waiting for Karl and having this ridiculous fantasy that he wil show up and ask me to marry him.
Ha.. what a joke.
Kent Miller was right, the age difference is a time bomb and I am an idiot.

May 15th 1998

Petes memorial was on Mt Tam and we went and Kris went.. he kind of hung around in the backround but the the worst part was hearing all Petes friends talking about Pete and Rebecca like they were a couple.. Kris is still married to her!
God it was creepy.
That was the friends memorial and then his mom is having a churchy one at their church on Saturday.
You know it seemed like he never found his way in life, I got him a job interview with Kevin Gee and he ran off the floor?
There are certain people in life that when you get "the call" and you find out they are done by their own decision it is somehow not surprising.
I hate to admit that or even say it but is seems true.
McKechney,, I was shocked but not surprised.
Karl is of course wishing he had talked to him before the end.

May 8th 1998

PETEY BABY HUNG HIMSELF

All day yesterday I waited for Karl to call me because we were going to go on a hike.
I thought maybe he was pissed at me for something or just bailed then he finally called late last night, he had been over at Pete's moms house all day.
Pete hung himself in his moms bathroom.
She called Karl cuz he was his best friend.
Karl is extremely bummed because he did not talk to him because of the Rebecca thing.
I am in shock.
I don't know what to do.

April 30th 1998

Karl is still not talking to Petey baby cuz of Rebecca the whore.
I still say friends are more important than all that shit.
Pete keeps calling and Karl will not call him back. It's sad. They have been friends since they were kids. Now this?
I wish they would work this out but it's more of a fuck job than any of us know.
It just gets worse and worse.
A lot of people are hurt.
Including me but we won't go into that chapter.
I will say this chick has done more damage to more people than I have ever known one human to be responsible for.
Karl and Kris are barely talking too,, ya great

April 12th 1998

The girl next door to me owns her houseboat and works for KTVU, they are doing some kind of houseboat life documentary and want to film my boat.. cuz it's quite strange.
I said yes.. they are filming when I am at work so who cares as long as they are gone by 3pm which they have been.
I love coming home from work and taking a nap up in the loft all floaty and fresh air.
We are planning a trip to Silver Lake maybe in August.
Im in!